the middle way

 I have been reading a lot about Buddhism and recognize that a lot of the values involved with the religion reflect values I have in life or that I am striving towards.  I am not going to become a Buddhist but it's comforting to see that there are people out there who want the similar things in life that I do.  People who are looking for the desirable balance between two extremes in their life.  The Golden Mean or the Middle Way.  I have been really interested (borderline obsessed) with reading about this idea in philosophy.  There are so many cultures that have information and there own version of this.   

I don't want to be insensitive or unkind to others.   I want to be awake.  I want to be a great friend, girlfriend, sister, daughter, employee, and student of life.  I want to be aware of my impact on the earth and my impact on other people.  I want to learn everything I can possibly learn.  I want to be able to trust the people I am closest to and I want them to be able to trust me.

Today I can honestly say that I am really happy.  My life is in a constant transition.  I am growing and learning and exploring.  I am making mistakes.  This is not a bad thing because I am becoming who I want to be and I am doing things that I want to do.  Things are not perfect, I can name two things that have been on my mind for a few weeks now that I need to either start working on or cut the ties and let go of but everything else is pretty positive in my life.  The toxic people that were in my life are all gone and I am filled with a lot of love from my friends.

Below are some photos from a show I played with a local punk band at a really amazing venue and my little brothers graduation from High School.